After The Mania

“What’s up with Johnny?  Don’t ya know he’s got that awful voice when he’s in that terrible mood I mean my God, what’s gonna happen to him?  I swear, Margaret, sometimes I wanna take that fucking kid and drown him.  Just take that worthless bastard and shove his head in the fucking toilet bowl and then at the very last minute, right before he turns blue, release him.  Smack him around and shit.  What kind of fucking demon is he?  Making a fortune off of wounded souls!  Ah shit, he’s at it again.  JOHNNY!  SHUT THE HELL UP OR I’LL RACE IN THERE AND GIVE YOU A SMACKING!”

Ben kept at it all night, irritating Margaret as she dozed off.  Shook her.    Trembled in the bed, fearing that Johnny would charge into the bedroom, kitchen knifes displayed like a violent deck of cards.    Smash!  Right in the neck.   No, he wasn’t gonna face that kind of slaughter.

“Will you knock if off, Ben!   Please.   I wanna get me some shut eye.  Can’t a woman get some shut eye around here?  Between you and Johnny, I’ll have to rent a hotel room.”  She rolled over, grunted, leaving Ben awestruck.

“She never mouths off to me.   Wow, she really must be tired.   Fine, I’ll make my way through the frigid corridor and sit beside  Johnny’s door, pounding on it after ever sharp-piercing decible.”

In the morning, indents on Ben’s back.   He slept all weird.   Dreamed about Johnny and Margaret having an affair…

No!  The italicized words are shit!  Total fucking shit!   There was a streak of mania riding through my brain on the way home from the gym.  They were dangerous.  This here is Hollywood nonsense.   Something I’ve never experienced before.  An affair!  Shit in my last relationship, a million years ago, I encouraged my ex-girlfriend to fool around with her band mate.   I wanted to watch.   Eventually, she broke up with me.   Claimed that when it came to love she didn’t “know what it meant anymore.”  They did fuck. Must have been good.  Now they’re married with a kid, maybe two.

Pregnant With Giants

I feel pregnant with giants.    The harder I push, the greater the resistance.  Fragments of them fall out.  They have strangenames (strange names, strangenames someone has strange names) like Zembrawr and Kendilickan.   They all claim to be metrosexual, their behaviors though are asexual.    The couch upon where they sit has puncture marks.

At night they keep me up.   During the day, I attempt to counsel them but they’re nowhere to be found.    Sometimes, a ghoulish fragment pulls me aside.  He possesses no eyes.   Somehow he sees everything.   He tells me about a woman who will appear in my life.   We’ll marry.  Maybe have kids.  When I press for further details, he vanishes.

What remains is emptiness and the next segment of my screenplay–

               EXT. LOG CABIN - NIGHT

               Damian gasps for air.

               Will slides down a rope, lands inches from Damian.

                                   WILL
                         This shit's crazy!  What's in this
                         wine?

               Damian snorts.  Picks himself off the ground.

                                   DAMIAN
                         Grapes.

               Will climbs halfway up the rope, swings and shouts--

                                   WILL
                         Grapes!  How I love grapes!

               Damian heads inside.

               INT. LOG CABIN - NIGHT

               On the floor, beside the kitchen sink, Charlie's curled up in
               a ball.

               Damian kicks him.

                                   DAMIAN
                         Wake up.

               Charlie doesn't budge.

                                   CHARLIE
                         I'm awake.

                                   DAMIAN
                         Sit up, then.

                                   CHARLIE
                         Why?

                                   DAMIAN
                         I wanna talk.

               Charlie opens one eye.  

                                   CHARLIE
                         You wanna talk?  That's a new one. 
                         You never wanna talk.  

                                   DAMIAN
                         Why did Kate send you here?

               Charlie picks himself off the floor.  Rifles through the
               cooler.

                                   CHARLIE
                         Where's the feta cheese?

                                   DAMIAN
                         Charlie...

                                   CHARLIE
                         Tell me you two didn't eat the feta
                         cheese.

                                   DAMIAN
                         We didn't eat the feta cheese. 
                         Kate promised she wouldn't send
                         anyone here.  What the fuck are you
                         doing here?

                                   CHARLIE
                         If you didn't eat the feta, where
                         the hell is it?  I did bring it
                         didn't I?  I remember it in the
                         basket.

               Damian pulls Charlie away from the cooler.  Grabs him by the
               neck.  Pushes him into the wall.

                                   DAMIAN
                         Was she upset?

                                   CHARLIE
                         No.  Everything was peachy.

               Damian pushes Charlie onto the floor.  Gives him a swift kick
               in the back.

               Will rushes in, arms flailing about.

                                   WILL
                         Yo, Damian you gotta try--

               Charlie spits up blood.

                                   DAMIAN
                         What, Will?

                                   WILL
                         The swing.  You gotta try it.

                                   DAMIAN
                         Yeah.  I will.

               Exiting the log cabin, Damian pushes past Will, nearly knocks
               the boy over. 

                                   WILL
                         What's with him?

                                   CHARLIE
                         Everything.

                                   WILL
                         I'm hungry.

                                   CHARLIE
                         Well, you can't have feta cheese.

                                   WILL
                         Yeah, I know.   I ate it all.

A Peaceful Solution To Doomsday

According to the Mayans, there are only five days left before the world ends. The behaviors of the last couple of days lead me to believe that some are acting as if this prophecy’s written in stone (well, technically it was written in stone…you get the meaning).  I refer specifically to two horrific behaviors:  the Sandy Hook Elementary School massacre and the shooting at the Newport Beach mall.   As if the massacre wasn’t enough, a bomb threat against a Newtown Catholic Church surfaced yesterday afternoon.

Let’s just say the Mayans are correct.   Come with me on a hopefully fictional journey where what we know, our roads, our loved ones, our running sneakers, our childhood dog’s tombstone, our most hated buildings burn to total smithereens by some supernatural force Friday  mid-breakfast.   The days that precede this so-called obliteration of what is, could go in many directions.    It could be business as usual.   Head to the office, drop your kids off at soccer practice, bake those delicious sugar cookies, attend your reading clubs.   It could be filled with the continuance of utter hate and rage.   More gun violence.  Bombs explode at every street corner.   Mothers are raped.  Fathers are murdered.   Children are kidnapped and tortured.  Mass suicides.

I propose a totally different response.   Bury your guns.   Snip the wires to your homemade bombs.   Lock your cutlery drawer.   Most importantly, go inward.  That’s right, GO INWARD.  Go beyond meditation.  Reflect on the person you are/wish to be.    Feel that heartbreak that you continue to deny.  Instead of acting out against the person who broke your heart, cry your eyes out.   Punch a pillow. Jump up and down till you feel lighter.  Feel…

Should all this sound fluffy to you, talk to someone.  You have nobody in your life, call a helpline.   There are people out there that do wish to help.

Below is a fragment of how I dealt with my terror yesterday.   It’s a video I wrote, directed and edited all in five hours.

P.S.  This video is satirical.  It’s my hope, should Congress vote against extended unemployment benefits, nobody kills themselves in response.

Toni Collette

My shrine for Toni Collette exists solely in my mind.   As the day passes, the thought of working with her arrives at least fifteen different times.  She makes the subtlest movements that after a quick examination scream, “I am this character.  I’ve always been this character and will die this character.”   Regardless of the role, regardless of the absurdity, she breathes honesty.

Using Toni as a muse, I sketched out a story for a film that is so personal.   It delineates my discomfort in romance and with family.   I’d be delighted if she played the female lead.   Who knows?

The below excerpt is not (I underlined the word not so that if this happens to be read on opposite day, it’s clear that this is not) from the story; it’s a continuation of the script titled Descent.

               INT. STORE - DAY

               BELLA, a shaking octogenarian, dusts the register.   She
               looks over at Charlie who is sifting through the ladies'
               dresses.

                                   BELLA
                         It's a nice selection here, isn't
                         it?

                                   CHARLIE
                         Sure is.  My wife...

                                   BELLA
                         Try something on.  We got dressing
                         rooms, ya know?

               Bella canes her way over to Charlie.  After examining a
               dress, she violently pushes it away.

                                   CHARLIE
                         Thank you but I'm...

                                   BELLA
                         I think you'd look excellent in
                         red.  Ah, I saw a nice red dress
                         here yesterday.  Where's the damn
                         thing.  Oops, pardon my language.  
                         I used to never curse until my
                         husband died.   You married?  

                                   CHARLIE
                         Not yet.

                                   BELLA
                         Well, be patient.  Someday you'll
                         find a man of your own.

                                   CHARLIE
                         Oh, I get it!  You think I'm a
                         woman because I'm...

                                   BELLA
                         You're a beautiful woman.   There's
                         no reason why you shouldn't be
                         married.

                                   CHARLIE
                         Well, okay.

                                   BELLA
                         Well, I speak the truth.  Ah, okay
                         here's the dress.

               Bella holds the dress up against Charlie's body.

               INT. LOG CABIN - EVENING

               Will downs his glass of wine.

                                   WILL
                         More, please.

               Charlie wearing a red dress refills Will's glass.

                                   CHARLIE
                         That's a ton of wine for a boy your
                         age.

                                   WILL
                         Did I ask for a commentary?

                                   CHARLIE
                         No?

                                   WILL
                         Then step away, woman.

               Shivers run down Charlie's back as he steps away.

               In the corner, Damian whittles a stick and hums.

                                   CHARLIE
                         How long do I have to wear this?

                                   WILL
                         Until either you leave or truly
                         morph into a woman.

                                   DAMIAN
                         Knowing Charlie, he'll fall in love
                         with the dress but never leave nor
                         morph into a woman.

               Damian and Will chuckle.

                                   WILL
                         Woman, refill his glass.

               Charlie refills Damian's glass.  

               Damian joins Will at the table.   He hands Will the whittled
               stick.

                                   DAMIAN
                         What do you think?

                                   WILL
                         That should do.  I'll test it.

                                   DAMIAN
                         On what?

               Will tosses the whittled wood at Charlie's back.

                                   CHARLIE
                         Fucking prick!

                                   WILL
                         Exactly!

               Damian and Will roar in wild laughter.

               BEGIN DREAM SEQUENCE

               EXT. CITY STREET - DAY

               It's clearly winter.  Everyone's bundled up in warm clothing
               including Kate and Charlie.

               Kate fishes in her pocket.  Pulls out a quarter.  Hands it to
               Charlie.

                                   KATE
                         That's all I got.

                                   CHARLIE
                         I'm jonesing for a smoke, Kate.  
                         What the hell will I do with a
                         quarter?

                                   KATE
                         Buy gum.  Kill the boy.

                                   CHARLIE
                         Will?

                                   KATE
                         No.  Not Will.

                                   CHARLIE
                         Then who?

               Kate points across the street to Damian.   He's dressed like
               a schoolboy.  Sucks his thumb.  

               A thick rope unravels in the air.  It falls to the ground.

               THUD

               Damian's eyes widen.

               END DREAM SEQUENCE

The Whine

It feels like forever since my last post.   Life’s been rather insane.   On December 8th, a letter from Department of Labor came in reminding me that my unemployment benefits could expire on the 30th of this month.   My finances are in the hands of congress.   This is so fucked up!  All I need is one more month.

Last Monday, I visited an organization in New York City called The Actors Fund.   This wonderful organization helps actors, filmmakers, writers, dancers, etc find work in everything but the entertainment industry.  There are networking opportunities, seminars, career counselors, so much!   Since I’ve never earned a dime in the entertainment industry, I’m in the process of asking former actors, musicians, collaborators of all sorts to write letters, vouching for my validity as a writer/filmmaker.   Maybe, just maybe, I can receive their assistance.  Isn’t this fucking blog enough?

In other news, this evening I’m auditioning for a role or two in a Vassar film.  There’s no pay but fuck I need something in life to feel good.   Yeah, I know, I sound whiny.  But if you were to walk in my shoes, you’d probably be dead…or lose your feet.

Enough of “me”.  Here’s the next installment of the script —

               EXT. CLEARING - EARLY MORNING

               Smoke rises from the log cabin's chimney.

               Damian and Will run through the clearing toward the cabin.

               EXT/INT. LOG CABIN - EARLY MORNING

               Damian and Will duck beneath the window.  

                                   WILL
                             (whispers)
                         I'm gonna take the shot.

                                   DAMIAN
                         Hold on.

               Damian raises his eyes to window level.  Bites his lip. 
               Crumbles to the ground.

                                   WILL
                         What?  Can I take it?

                                   DAMIAN
                         No.  Fuck!

                                   WILL
                         What?

               Will peers through the window.

               Charlie smokes a cigarette while hot water boils on the wood
               stove.

                                   WILL (CONT'D)
                         Who the fuck is that?

                                   DAMIAN
                         It's Charlie Hammond.
                             (loud)
                         What the fuck are you doing here,
                         Charlie?

                                   CHARLIE (O.S.)
                         Oh you're back.  Thank God.  It's
                         been lonely without you.   Thought
                         maybe you got eaten by a bear or
                         drowned or something.   Where are
                         you?  I'm making some coffee.  Want
                         some?

               INT. LOG CABIN - MORNING

               Damian and Charlie sip their coffees.

               Will's perched on the bed, his rifle aimed at Charlie's feet.

                                   CHARLIE
                             (to Will)
                         You can have some.  It's good. 
                         Picked it up at this health food
                         store.  Don't worry it's fresh. 
                         Organic and fair trade...

                                   WILL
                         I don't drink coffee.

                                   CHARLIE
                         Well, it's here if you want it.  I
                         mean it's like really...

                                   WILL
                         I won't.

               Damian slams his coffee on the table.

                                   DAMIAN
                         You can't be here.

                                   CHARLIE
                         I know, yes.  You keep telling me.  
                         This island must be messing up your
                         memory.   Is this island like the
                         island from Lost?  You know the TV
                         show?

                                   DAMIAN
                         Never saw it.

                                   CHARLIE
                         It's all supernatural.  Creepy. 
                         Only seen a couple of episodes. 
                         Induced the worst insomnia.  Had to
                         stop watching it.

               Will leaps off the bed and signals for Damian him.

                                   DAMIAN
                         What?

                                   WILL
                         Outside.

               EXT. LOG CABIN - MORNING

               Damian and Will sit on the last step, huddled close.

                                   WILL
                         You invited him.  Didn't you?

                                   DAMIAN
                         Will...

                                   WILL
                         You just want to sabotage this
                         whole operation.

                                   DAMIAN
                         Don't be ridiculous.  The man's
                         obsessed with me.

               A lump wells up in Will's throat.

                                   WILL
                         I thought you'd fix this shit with
                         Kate?

                                   DAMIAN
                         She's stubborn.

               Will cracks the step with the butt of his rifle.

                                   WILL
                         This is fucked!

                                   DAMIAN
                         Calm the hell down!  And loose the
                         rifle.  He's not gonna kill us. 
                         He's a neurotic comedian.

               EXT. ISLAND WATERFRONT - DAY

               Damian rolls the row boat right side up onto the sand. 
               Pushes the boat into the water.  He then hands Charlie the
               oars.

                                   DAMIAN
                         Get in.

                                   CHARLIE
                         Oh no, no.  I need a life
                         preserver.   How can I get into a
                         boat without the extra security?

                                   DAMIAN
                         Charlie...

                                   CHARLIE
                         Fine!

               Charlie fumbles onto the boat.  Once settled, he jumps off
               the boat.  Kicks and screams in the water.

                                   DAMIAN
                         Charlie, what's gotten into you? 
                         C'mon now.   Get the hell back in
                         the boat.

                                   CHARLIE
                         No, I can't.   I love it here.  
                         This is my dream island.  It's
                         where I'll channel Tolkien.   Trust
                         me.   Give me a month.   I'll stay
                         out of your hair.  I promise.  Just
                         a month.   

                                   DAMIAN
                         No.

                                   CHARLIE
                         What's you mean no?   You're
                         leaving and that's that.

               Will jumps off a boulder.  Tosses his rifle to the side.

                                   WILL
                         Damian, let him stay.

                                   CHARLIE
                         Really?   Oh God, I love you!  Ho
                         lord, I love you...

                                   WILL
                         There are conditions, though.

                                   CHARLIE
                         What kind of conditions?

A Little Blurb on the True Inner Voice

The seemingly endless search for one’s true voice.   Yesterday I heard mine.   It terrified me greatly.    In time, you will see this voice beaming through the writing.   In the meantime, I’ll post more of the script which I had titled Descent.

               INT. LOG CABIN - NIGHT

               Only a few items are illuminated.   A rusty lantern.   A
               clouded up mirror.   A clay mug.    

               Glass SHATTERS.

               A hand reaches through the open pane, turns the knob. 
               Someone stumbles through the dark, ignites a match which
               powers the lantern.  Light fills the room.

               Damian approaches the bed.  Shakes the lump underneath the
               wool blanket.

                                   DAMIAN
                         Hey.   Why was the door locked?

               Will, shirtless and half asleep, crawls out from underneath
               the wool blanket.

                                   WILL
                         What?

                                   DAMIAN
                         You didn't hear me come in?

                                   WILL
                         No.

                                   DAMIAN
                         I had to break the glass.  Why was
                         it locked?

                                   WILL
                         It was locked?

               Damian moves further into the bed.

                                   DAMIAN
                         Yeah.  Move over.

                                   WILL
                         You're here so late.

                                   DAMIAN
                         I got here as soon as I could.

               Damian sprawls out on the bed.

                                   WILL
                         You stink.

               Will crawls over Damian, reaches for the cooler.  Pulls out a
               beer.  POPS the cap off.

                                   DAMIAN
                         Where the hell'd you get that?

                                   WILL
                         The store.

                                   DAMIAN
                         Which store?

                                   WILL
                             (laughs)
                         The store.

                                   DAMIAN
                         Got another?

               Will hands Damian another beer.   Their fingers rub against
               one another.

                                   WILL
                         What's up with your hand?

                                   DAMIAN
                         Ah, it's nothing.

                                   WILL
                         Grabbed the honey locust, didn't
                         ya?

                                   DAMIAN
                         Something like that.  

                                   WILL
                         Didn't think you'd make it.

                                   DAMIAN
                         What?  And leave you here to rot?

                                   WILL
                         I wouldn't rot.

                                   DAMIAN
                         Will, listen, there's someone else
                         here.

                                   WILL
                         Here?

                                   DAMIAN
                         Not here here.  On the island.

                                   WILL
                         Who?

                                   DAMIAN
                         I don't know.   A figure ran past
                         me.    

                                   WILL
                         Human?

               Damian nods.

               Will takes a wrinkled shirt off the floor.  Reaches for his
               boots.

                                   DAMIAN
                         You can't be serious!

                                   WILL
                         We gotta find him.

                                   DAMIAN
                         I just got here.  I wanna sleep,
                         man.

                                   WILL
                         Then sleep.  I'm gonna find him.

               Will rushes out the door.

               EXT. LOG CABIN - NIGHT

               Will pulls the floorboard off the porch.  Retrieves a rifle.  
               Grabs a hemp satchel loaded with bullets.  Tosses the satchel
               over his shoulder.  As he steps off the porch, a hand stops
               him.

                                   DAMIAN
                         I'm coming with you.

                                   WILL
                         Thought you wanted to sleep.

                                   DAMIAN
                         I do. Let's go.

               EXT. RURAL ROAD - NIGHT

               Damian reaches out, preventing Will from walking any further.

                                   DAMIAN
                         It was right around here.

               Will pushes past Damian.  Cocks the rifle.  Disappears into
               the brush.

                                   DAMIAN (CONT'D)
                         Will!  Where the...

               Damian follows after him.

               EXT. WOODS - DAWN

               Damian lags thirty feet behind Will.  At a boulder, he stops,
               leans against it.

                                   DAMIAN
                         Will!

               Will doesn't stop.

                                   DAMIAN (CONT'D)
                         C'mon, dude, what the fuck!  We've
                         circled this island five times.  
                         The sun's coming up.

               Trembling, Will stops.  He turns back at Damian.  Charges
               after him. Pointing the loaded rifle at him.

                                   WILL
                         Did you see a figure or not?

                                   DAMIAN
                         Yes.  I'm pretty sure I did.  

               The rifle inches from Damian's forehead, Will cocks the
               rifle.

                                   WILL
                         I could kill you.

                                   DAMIAN
                         I know, Will.  But you won't.  You
                         need me.

               Will lowers the rifle. Shuffles in uncertainty.

                                   WILL
                         Didn't meant to...

               Will falls to the ground.   Tears drip down his cheek.

                                   DAMIAN
                         It's fine.

                                   WILL
                         No, it's not.  I don't like what
                         I'm becoming.

               Will tears the rifle off, throws it over a stump.

                                   DAMIAN
                         It's only temporary.   

                                   WILL
                         Bullshit.

               Will crawls over to the rifle, throws it over his body.

                                   DAMIAN
                         Onward?

Continuation of Script

I have this tendency to take what’s already written and do an overhaul.   Although I’m trying to get out of this pattern, it’s essential  an overhaul occurs.   Why?   Something else presses me…

Memories from my most recent job.   Although it was rather nightmarish (for four years, every day, nonstop), I’ve decided to take a satirical look at it.   The characters from the Descent script will be transferred over to this more personal story.

In the meantime, I will continue to post the script in the order in which it was written.   Here it goes —

INT. CONFERENCE ROOM - DAY

               CHARLIE, unshaven and bug-eyed paces the room.   An unlit
               cigarette dangles in his hand.  He charges at Damian the
               moment he enters.

                                   CHARLIE
                         My God!  That woman with the nice
                         hair, didn't seem happy to see me. 
                         What's up with that?  Oh, she's
                         your lady friend you were talking
                         about.   How's everything going
                         with you and her?  

                                   DAMIAN
                         Just peachy.

               Damian pours some whiskey into a glass.

                                   CHARLIE
                         "Peachy"?  Great word.   Listen,
                         I've been up all night, man.  I
                         just figured it out. I should say
                         fuck it to comedy and write books.  
                         Adventures like Tolkien.   What do
                         you say?  I mean like fuck, Damian,
                         I'm not getting any younger.   You
                         know my birthday was on Tuesday. 
                         Turned thirty-one.  Not that you
                         care.

                                   DAMIAN
                         Want any?

                                   CHARLIE
                         What?

               Damian raises his glass of whiskey.

                                   CHARLIE (CONT'D)
                         Alcohol?  Are you crazy?  It's like
                         12:15.  What the fuck man?   Why
                         would I want to drink?  I barely
                         ate breakfast.  Just a tiny bowl of
                         Greek yogurt with bananas.   You
                         ever have that combo?   Greek
                         yogurt and bananas?   It's great. 
                         You should try it.

               Damian takes a seat at the head of the conference table.  His
               face stricken with horror.

                                   CHARLIE (CONT'D)
                         What?  You're scaring me.   Stop
                         scaring me.   You're looking at me
                         all weird.

                                   DAMIAN
                         Charlie, I need you to shut the
                         fuck up and sit down.

               Without hesitation, Charlie takes a seat.

                                   CHARLIE
                         Okay.  Hi!  What's up?

                                   DAMIAN
                         I'm dropping you.

                                   CHARLIE
                         What? I thought we were tight man. 
                         Aren't we friends?  What's this all
                         about?  You can't be serious.  How
                         is this possible?   

                                   DAMIAN
                         I'm dropping everyone.

                                   CHARLIE
                         You're not suicidal are you? 
                         Please tell me you're not suicidal. 
                         If you're suicidal you should get
                         some help. Lots of help.  
                         All sorts of professionals out
                         there that can help you with this
                         kind of stuff.  Tell me you're not
                         suicidal.

                                   DAMIAN
                         I'm not suicidal.  

                                   CHARLIE
                         Wooh!  Well, that's a relief.  But
                         you're dropping everyone?   Why?

                                   DAMIAN
                         It's time.   

                                   CHARLIE
                         Time?  Time for what?

               EXT. WATERFRONT - DAY

               The day couldn't be cloudier.

               Damian, in torn khaki shorts and a fluorescent tank top,
               drags a row boat on the muddied sand.  He heads toward the
               crystalline water. 

               The boat catches onto a hump in the sand.

               Damian tugs but falls forward.   He leaps to the front of the
               boat, lifts it from the hump.   Continues pulling the boat
               toward the water.  At the water's edge, he jumps in the row
               boat.  Paddles away.

               EXT. RURAL ROAD - EVENING

               The pavement's cracked.  Regardless, Damian, out of breath,
               saunters about.   Knapsack slung over his shoulder.   

               A dark figure runs across the street.

               Fatigued, Damian grabs a tree branch.

                                   DAMIAN
                         Hello?
                             (beat)
                         Shit!  

               Damian yanks his hand off the branch.  Blood pools up on each
               finger.  He licks the blood.

The First Two Scenes

As promised, here are the first two scenes:

               BEGIN DREAM SEQUENCE

               INT. SCHOOL CORRIDOR - NIGHT

               Rusty water drips from the ceiling down the wall.

               DAMIAN, late 30s and polished hair, steps out of the way,
               keeping one eye glued to the ceiling.   He brushes any water
               off his bloodied suit.  Undoes his pitch black neck tie, uses
               it to clean off the hardened blood.

               YOUNG HEAVY BREATHING approaches.

               Damian drops the tie as a half-naked child crawls on all
               fours.

               The child looks up.   It's WILL, athletic and at the age of
               twelve holds the promise of becoming a good-looking man.  He
               bears a shit-eating grin, clearly enjoys the situation.

                                   WILL
                         Hard at work?

               A gun raises.  Seconds later, it FIRES.

               Will laughs, unaffected by the bullet.

               Damian attempts to fire another round.  Nothing happens. 

                                   WILL (CONT'D)
                         What's wrong, Damian?

               END DREAM SEQUENCE

               INT. DAMIAN'S OFFICE - DAY

               Blurry image of KATE, blond-haired, hovers above.  Her
               youthful, well-shaped thighs slowly come into focus. Damian's
               hand rubs up and down her legs.

               Kate pushes his hands off her, steps back, defensive, clearly
               disgusted with Damian's behavior.

                                   KATE
                         Please.

                                   DAMIAN
                         Why not, darling?

                                   KATE
                         You're drunk...darling.

               Kate tosses an empty mini bottle of vodka into the trash bin.

               Damian swings his legs off the desk, adjusts his tie.

                                   DAMIAN
                         What are you doing here?

                                   KATE
                         Worried about you.   

                                   DAMIAN
                         Ah.

                                   KATE
                         Some guy's here to see you.

                                   DAMIAN
                         Who?

                                   KATE
                         I don't know.  He's in the
                         conference room.

A Roaring Welcome

Dear Readers:

The week before Thanksgiving, I sunk into the worst depression ever.   The descent rattled both my physical and mental health.   I did everything possible to stop myself from falling deep into this pit.   Called family and friends.   All they could really say was, “I love you.  We hope things get better.”   As warming as that might be to hear, I still hit rock bottom.

Once there, a voice spoke to me.   It said, “If you’re a writer, then just write!   Screw what Syd Field and Robert McKee preach.  Get something, anything on paper.  Doesn’t matter how fucked up it is.  Just fucking write.”   The next day I started work on a screenplay.   I had no clue where this was going.   I wrote three pages a day.  This, in conjunction with St. John’s Wort, proved to elevate my mood.   By the third day, I titled the piece, Descent (named after my descent into the worst emotional state I can remember.   More on the title in two paragraphs).

On the twenty-fifth page, questions started taking over.   Why is the boy character, Will, so hated by everyone except the protagonist, Damian?   What is the relationship between Damian and Will?    Upon reaching the bottom of the thirty-second page, I stopped.  Didn’t know what kind of story I was telling.

While my mind ruminated for further story ideas, I stumbled across an article entitled “The 15 Biggest Cult Films of the Past Five Years”.   The third biggest cult film, Descent.   “Shit”, thinks I.    Time to rethink things.   No better venue to rethink things than a blog.   This blog shall be called Descent into My Creative Mind:  A Rather Absurd Journey.

This is how it shall be laid out.  Excerpts of the script shall be posted whereupon the next day or days later analyze the piece along with discussing where the scene(s) could go.  Occasionally, I’ll insert random fictional absurdity that has nothing to do with script.   Some days, I’ll embark upon philosophical ramblings.

I ask you, the reader/follower, for honesty.  You have something to say, say it.  Don’t hold back.   Thank you and enjoy this blog.
–Eric Sazer